Week 4

This week has thrown me a whole lot of new challenges. I am craving like crazy!!!! I want dumplings and teriyaki balls and burgers and sandwiches and noodles!! Everything I'm not allowed I am craving…like crazy! I was at Riccarton Mall during the week, and if I hadn't had my friend with me I would have gone and brought dumplings. It was only because she stopped me that I didn’t go and get them. The entire way there I was talking myself up, getting excited to eat them. Even when I was at the mall I was still determined to get them. I was craving so bad and was determined to get them and nothing was going to stop me! However…my best friend stopped me. It wasn’t an easy task I can tell you that much. But we managed a compromise. We ended up getting Chinese, and I got chicken cashew nut, with no rice might I add!

The cravings are really starting to bring me down. I feel like I'm only a tummy rumble away from going on a binge. I'm pretty safe in my own household…as there is nothing there that is bad for me. But its when I'm unorganised or get hungry unexpectedly…or even when I'm not hungry but just crave! I haven't really learnt anyway to overcome these cravings yet. I have just been putting up with them really. Sometimes I will just eat something else I really like instead. Like bacon and eggs or similar. But I really hope I don’t let loose as don’t want to go backwards…which has been the case with every other diet I have ever tried. 

CrossFit is going great. I FINALLY managed to get the courage to write my goal on the whiteboard. I felt like a bit of a plonker putting my goal up. Everyone else's goals were massive!! Huge fitness goals which were really impressive. I have about 100million goals I could right up there. But I started with something very achievable and that wont take me years to accomplish.  Because I can always right up another one! So my goal was to complete 1 (at least) full males push up. For as long as I can remember I haven't been able to do a full press up, barely a females press up. So that is my goal and I cant wait to be able to do one  :)

Food wise has been good this week. I went out for brunch and asked the staff to make me a ham and cheese omelette, even though it wasn’t on the menu. And they did! Which I was very thankful for. It came with bread…but I didn’t eat it ! Also like stated above, before a party on Saturday we got Chinese. I got chicken and vegetables with cashew nuts. We were talking as a group re our go to meals if we have nothing organised. Mine is definitely Kumara hash and eggs. I have grated a whole lot of Kumara using my mums food processor and have it in the fridge ready. So if all else fails, I make a Kumara pattie and some eggs and I feel great. It fills me up, and bonus, it tastes great!! 

I'm loving the support of my family. My mum has made me some great meals. And amazing stir fry, which was devine! With some kumara hash on the side. You will see it in the photos attached. Really yummy and makes it easier having their support.

It has again been a large mental game for me re the scales. I get on them at the same time every week, first thing in the morning on a Monday. And again, for the second week in a row…my weight says the exact same. It got me down this week, not going to lie. I'm probably being a little harsh on myself…as I'm still not over the moon as I haven't noticed any changes in my clothing.

But I can't be doing this great lifestyle change and not have any changes so that’s what I keep thinking :)

P.S. The egg photo is how different my fridge is! Only got them a few days ago and they are already mostly gone!! I'm going through dozens a week!